November 23, 2009
Bury myself alive….
I wish I could just hide. I want to ignore all emails for evermore. I want the world to disappear and if it can’t, then I want to disappear instead. I really cannot stand much more of this “life” thing.
Uni is unbearable. I’m not there at hte moment, but I keep getting emails about my “situation” and stuff. I want them to just leave me alone. I can’t bear it. I think I might just have to disconnect myself for a bit. Just until the world feels a bit safer for me. I’ve actually gotten to the point where I’m frightened of my tutor, because of the way things have been handled. I worry on a daily basis about bumping into him around where I live (knowing that he lives in the area as well), and I’m scared to even go into campus because I don’t want to see him.
I can’t believe that all of this has happened. I know I haven’t really detailed it here, and there are reasons for that, but omg, its just… horrid.
